Since Mom's death my sister, Wendy, has been losing her battle with head and neck cancer. She has cancer in her throat, soft pallete, sinuses, behind her eyes, and we believe in her brain now. Wendy decided in December 2007 to discontinue chemo treatments. She has been battling this cancer since 2000. At one time she was even in remission. Through this whole process my sister has become addicted to morphine. Currently she receives 1600 milligrams every day. This is on top of methadone and other breakthrough drugs as well.
My other sister, Charlene, and I have been taking turns staying with Wendy so she does not have to die alone. The constant care includes giving meds through peg tube inserted in her stomach every 7-8 hrs, putting eye drops in, changing bandages, emptying cathater bag, and bathing and changing clothes. It has become very taxing for both of us. It is a labor of love but we could sure use a break. I'm getting ready to start my weekend with her today when I get off work at 5pm.
My posting has been sporatic and will probably continue to be so. I haven't shared about my feelings in this post because I can't right now. I can say I've cried recently though and it felt good afterwards. Mostly I feel tired and sad most the time. Not getting enough meetings that's for sure.
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