2 Weeks Later

Well, here we are 2 wks later and Wendy is still with us. As a matter of fact she is getting stronger by the day (or so it seems). Currently she is getting in and out of bed unassisted and walking without a walker. She does complain of more mouth pain though. And she wants her catheter out. Can't say I blame her for that - I hate the things. Anyway, things out here have become estranged. Charlene left on Sunday morning before I arrived and has not returned. It is now Wed. evening June 18th. We are beginning to wonder if she is coming back at all. I will stay tonight and again on Friday night after attending Birthday Night at my home group. The best damn home group in the world "Pioneer Group of NA". My plan is to attend an adoption party for my granddaughter and then spend Saturday night as well. On Sunday I have a subcommittee meeting in the afternoon and usually attend Sunday morning meeting. I don't know at this time if I'll stay Sunday night or not. I do know I have to have a talk with Wendy about the amount of time I'm still willing to stay out here. With her strength returning I don't feel as much care is needed. That and I've put my life on hold for the past 6-8 wks to take care of Wendy. I don't want to develop a resentment over all this so I have to have a heart to heart with her. This I'm not looking forward to at all. She will be hurt and may feel abandoned. I did talk with her husband and he can't do it all alone. We spoke briefly about a nursing facility. Something Wendy has said in the past that she does not want. So this is where I'm at right now. Tired and unsure about the future. This is true for so many of us.